3.20.2015

A Little Madness

But green after green after green!...
It's spring, Poem, take us outside....
~ "The Poem She Didn't Write and Other Poems" by Olena Kalytiak Davis


This week the cherry blossoms are peaking in Seattle, right on time for the Spring Equinox As we do every year, we took a picnic to enjoy under the indescribably beautiful trees.  Like Christmas cards, I can track our family year by year from the photos we take. 



Pale pink blossoms, universal symbol of the fleeting nature of time, they inspire me to read poetry. I got a little carried away - it can be a rabbit hole: one poem leads to another, which reminds me of a line I have to go chase down and then that one leads to a whole book and then, well, whole evenings can slide by in such a pleasant state...I thought I would select one perfect poem to share, but really, what is the point of restraint?  It is spring after all, the season of exuberance.  So below are a few favorite lines and two wonderful full poems to share. Happy, happy, happy Spring!




A little Madness in the spring
is healthy even for the King.
~ Emily Dickinson

Begin afresh, afresh, afresh.

~ "The Trees" by Philip Larkin

In Just spring, when the world is mud-luscious...when the world is puddle-wonderful...

~ e.e. cummings

What is all this juice and all this joy?

~ "Spring" by Gerald Manley Hopkins


Another Spring

The seasons revolve and the years change
With no assistance or supervision.
The moon, without taking thought,
Moves in its cycle, full, crescent, and full.
The white moon enters the heart of the river;
The air is drugged with azalea blossoms;
Deep in the night a pine cone falls;
Our campfire dies out in the empty mountains.
The sharp stars flicker in the tremulous branches;
The lake is black, bottomless in the crystalline night;
High in the sky the Northern Crown
Is cut in half by the dim summit of a snow peak.
O heart, heart, so singularly
Intransigent and corruptible,
Here we lie entranced by the starlit water,
And moments that should each last forever
Slide unconsciously by us like water.

~ Kenneth Rexroth 

Spring
Somewhere
    a black bear
      has just risen from sleep
         and is staring

down the mountain.
    All night
      in the brisk and shallow restlessness
         of early spring

I think of her,
    her four black fists
      flicking the gravel,
         her tongue

like a red fire
    touching the grass,
      the cold water.
         There is only one question:

how to love this world.
    I think of her
      rising
         like a black and leafy ledge

to sharpen her claws against
    the silence
      of the trees.
         Whatever else

my life is
    with its poems
      and its music
         and its glass cities,

it is also this dazzling darkness
    coming
      down the mountain,
         breathing and tasting;

all day I think of her—
    her white teeth,
      her wordlessness,
         her perfect love.
~ Mary Oliver

3.16.2015

One Clover


A while back, I spent a happy afternoon collaging with friends, our host the talented collage artist Veronica Smith who specializes in personal mandalas. Veronica had invited us to drink tea and play with paper, scissors and glue. Collaging is not something I normally do and I found it unexpectedly soothing to cut and sort and paste and create. It felt meditative and exhilarating at the same time.

I was envisioning something full of greens to frame a favorite Emily Dickinson poem I had printed years ago in a letterpress class. And I wanted to showcase a tiny and fragile family heirloom: a four-leaf clover. This tiny green shoot, symbol of the luck of the Irish, was given to me by my father, who received it from a neighbor we called Grandma Edie. She had taped the four-leaf clover on a small card to preserve it and then she wrote on the back in her wispy handwriting:


"Found Friday
June 13th 1975
804 South 1st Ave.
Really was
needed."

I love to imagine Grandma Edie that day in 1975. Was she gardening, picnicking, reading in the grass? Did she whoop when she realized what she'd found? Why did she need the luck and did it hold? How long does a four-leaf clover give luck and does it transfer to future hands?

Almost forty years later, this is what came out of my afternoon collaging with friends...


I took this photograph of my creation today in the dappled sunshine, rather pleased with my novice attempt to make art out of something other than words. Now the assemblage hangs from its hook in my kitchen and is a daily visual reminder of luck and hope and spring...and that oh-so-beautiful word: revery.

To make a prairie
It takes a clover and a bee.
One clover and a bee,
And revery.
Revery alone will do
If bees are few.


Happy St. Patrick's Day!  Happy Almost-Spring!




3.11.2015

Nothing Is Lost

Nothing Is Lost

Deep in our sub-conscious, we are told
Lie all our memories, lie all the notes
Of all the music we have ever heard
And all the phrases those we loved have spoken,
Sorrows and losses time has since consoled,
Family jokes, out-moded anecdotes
Each sentimental souvenir and token
Everything seen, experienced, each word
Addressed to us in infancy, before
Before we could even know or understand
The implications of our wonderland.
There they all are, the legendary lies
The birthday treats, the sights, the sounds, the tears
Forgotten debris of forgotten years
Waiting to be recalled, waiting to rise
Before our world dissolves before our eyes
Waiting for some small, intimate reminder,
A word, a tune, a known familiar scent
An echo from the past when, innocent
We looked upon the present with delight
And doubted not the future would be kinder
And never knew the loneliness of night.


~ Noel Coward

2.14.2015

Love Stories

Love courses through everything. 
~ Fakhruddin Iraqui, 
   Persian Sufi (1213-1289)


~ from The New Yorker

Happy Valentine's Day!  When was the last time you told your love story? Whether you are reminiscing about the details, living in the passionate throes or dreaming of your future love story, tell it today.

Below is my ever-evolving love story. Now I just need to get Maira Kalman to illustrate it.
Once upon a time there was a green-eyed American girl who met a blue-eyed British-Canadian boy at a sculpture park. She had the heart of a poet and he had the mind of a genius. They fell instantly in love. They both liked to have adventures and they decided it would be even more fun to have adventures together.  
They popped champagne in Paris, sailed to Antarctica, strolled Kyoto's gardens, snorkeled in the Caribbean, and rode funiculars in Valparaiso. They feasted on truffles in Cortona, climbed Mayan temples, trekked in Patagonia, danced in Montevideo, explored Angkor Wat and rendezvoused in Bilbao.
It was even more fun having adventures together. 
They went swimming in Phu Quoq, birding in Greenland, camping in Yellowstone, beach-combing in Guadeloupe and storm-watching in Tofino. They held hands in Istanbul, skied down Whistler, road-tripped to Santa Fe, walked under moonlight at Iquazu Falls and kissed in Kailua. 
Between adventures, they lived in a treehouse high above a blue heron rookery on the edge of the Pacific Ocean. They had a son who loved trains. Then they had a baby daughter who smiled and cooed all day. They moved to a 100-year-old house full of sunlight with a creek running by. They filled their home with books and laughter, cooked delicious things and swung on their porch swing. They played all day with their son and his trains while the baby smiled and cooed...
...and they lived happily ever after.

1.17.2015

Yucatan Ambassadors



Mi Munaquita in her traditional embroidered Mayan huipil

While we were in Quintana Roo and the Yucatan last month, Georgia turned some heads. Most people love babies, but in Mexico people really love babies. Strangers on the street stopped to coo over her and often reached their arms out to take her from me and cuddle her for a moment before giving her back. They call her mi munequita (my little doll), mi gordita (my little fatso), mi preciosa (my precious), mi princesa (my princess). A policewoman stopped to scold me for not dressing Georgia warmly enough - yes, January on the Yucatan peninsula is technically winter, but it is very relative - then she rocked Georgia for a few moments in her arms. The best was the grandmothers doing a double-take when Christian was carrying her in the "Maya" sling and then they would break into a grin, look him in the eye and pat him on the arm.

Fellow travelers would stop to complement us on our pretty children and say wistfully, "It goes so fast," "Next thing you'll know they'll be teenagers," or "I remember when I carried my daughter everywhere." One woman even came up to apologize to us for staring and said, "It was so long ago my kids were that small." My reaction to this is always: "Thank you for stopping to admire my daughter/son." I feel so proud to be the mother of these children and happy to connect with a stranger for a moment. That is the whole point of travel, isn't it?

And we stare at kids too - Christian commented on this trip that Mexican children may be among the most beautiful in the world. We love to people watch and notice the local kids, make eye contact and smile at them and their parents. Kids have less reservations than adults and are as curious about us as we are about them. A little girl named Lupe, swimming with her little brother, drifted closer and closer to us until I said hello and we had a laughing conversation in my poor Spanish.  She introduced me to her siblings, and later her mother, all on holiday from Tabasco.



Santi and Javier

Xavier made a new little buddy named Santiago on the beach and we enjoyed hanging out with his parents for the few days we overlapped. One day eating friend whole fish on the beach, a family sitting next to us smiled at us and before they left, their two little kids shyly brought Xavier a sucker. Rose, our host at the hacienda which had been in her family for seven generations, gave Xavier a yellow pinata the day we checked out. Antonio, our guide in Izlamar, stopped to ask some women to cut some fresh aloe from their garden to soothe Xavier's mosquito bites.

When traveling, the adventures and experiences make up the texture of a trip, but the people give it depth. The personal connections make the memories.



Georgia dozing happily in her Maya sling


With babe-in-arms, the Virgin Mary in Vallodolid


Climbing up a crumbling 1000-year-old temple at Ek-Balem. At the top, I panicked and regretted taking my children up, despite the uninterrupted jungle views in every direction.


Xavier swimming with Christian in Cenote Maya


Evening in Vallodolid's Plaza Mayor


El Castillo at Chitzen-Itza


Playing ball on the ancient ballcourt


Xavier also made friends with a little jaguar


Margarita-time! (virgin for Xavier, regular for mom and dad)


Tulum ruins before a thunderstorm blew in


Akumal Beach


Yul-ka Lagoon


"Our" beach on Akumal Bay, the calm, shallow water was full of sea-turtles


Siesta on the beach


The good life, under Turner-painted skies

1.01.2015

Like An Unexpected Gift

...and farther on to the roofs of the houses of the gods who have learned 
there are no endings, only beginnings...
~ Joy Harjo from "Rainy Dawn"

Happy New Year! Wishing you all countless moments of joy, love, happiness and peace in the coming year. May you savor each one.

     With my holiday cards to friends and family, I like to include a New Year's poem, a tradition I began eleven years ago. This one struck me just right this year as I look forward to grand adventures as well as lovely "ordinary" days.

Ordinary Life

This was a day when nothing happened, 
the children went off to school
without a murmur, remembering
their books, lunches, gloves. 
All morning, the baby & I built block stacks
in the squares of light on the floor. 
& lunch blended into naptime, 
I cleaned out kitchen cupboards, 
one of those jobs that never gets done, 
then sat in a circle of sunlight
& drank ginger tea, 
watched the birds at the feeder
jostle over lunch's little scraps. 
A pheasant strutted from the hedgerow, 
preened & flashed his jeweled head. 
Now a chicken roasts in the pan, 
& the children return, 
the murmur of their stories dappling the air. 
I peel carrots & potatoes without paring my thumb. 
We listen together for your wheels on the drive. 
Grace before bread. 
& at the table, actual conversation, 
no bickering or pokes. 
& then, the drift into homework. 
The baby goes to his cars, drives them
along the sofa's ridges & hills. 
Leaning by the counter, we steal a long slow kiss, 
tasting of coffee & cream. 
The chicken's diminished to skin & skeleton, 
the moon to a comma, a sliver of white, 
but this has been a day of grace
in the dead of winter, 
the hard cold knuckle of the year, 
a day that unwrapped itself
like an unexpected gift, 
& the stars turn on, 
order themselves
into the winter night.

~ Barbara Crooker

                       
One of these years, I will make a hand-bound edition of all the poems I've sent. Here is the beginning of the contents...

     2005 - Snow by Billy Collins
2006 - Angels by Maurya Simon
2007 - Not Only the Eskimos by Lisel Mueller
2008 - Skater by Ted Kooser
2009 - Magellanic Penguin by Pablo Neruda
2010 - Snowflake by William Baer
2011 - The Metier of Blossoming by Denise Levertov
2012 - Madeline by Ludwig Bemelmans
2013 - When I Am Among the Trees by Mary Oliver
2014 - New Year's by Dana Gioia
2015 - Ordinary Life by Barbara Crooker